I Need You More

5k Warrior Run

I couldn't have felt more alive than the way I felt today.

Me and my eldest daughter ran our first 5k today. I honestly didn't think I could do it. After having 2 children, lack of consistent self care, I have to be honest and say that I don't always feel the best health wise. But I just couldn't allow for Kennedy to do it on her own. My husband busy studying for law school midterms, I was left to face the challenge. So we did it, together....

She challenges me to reach further, to achieve greater, to soar higher.

It is so amazing to witness your child accomplish task big and small. It is moments in her triumph that God places confirmation of my hard work and dedication as a mother. I watched her socialize with friends as she pace nervously all while trying to keep her cool. I kept saying "Kennedy you can do it, if mommy can, you can". She would smile nonchalantly. We both knew that the challenge may be greater than we both anticipated. We both leaned on each other for hope, strength, and for support.

Ready, Set, Inspire...

As she stood at the start line, I pulled my youngest daughter, Karter, closer to give Kennedy that last burst of inspiration. I then peeked down at Karter gazing so seriously at her sister. I am very intentional when it comes to making sure I create a bond between them. It has not been as hard as I thought being 7 years apart. Karter is in awe with Kennedy. She cheered her own, screamed and yelled as she watched the crowd go crazy. I truly believe she is inspired by her sister more than she is me. She knows me as her mother, but her sister forces her to dream higher, achieve greater, and inspires her to discover more. 

Now it was my turn. After watching my baby girl crawl through the mud, successfully beating all the hurdles that came her way during the course, I had to. I had no other choice. So I begin, and who was to my left the entire way, Kennedy. She shouted in moments of me wanting to give up " mom you can do it, I'm so proud of you, keep going". So I would take a second wind and fight my way through. I felt like I could do anything as she kept screaming to make sure I knew she was there. I absolutely finished because of her. There are times we believe our children need us to thrive, and yes that may be true. But as I continue to learn more during my motherhood journey, it is defiantly the other way around. My girls keep me going...they force me to follow through, they hold me accountable for the things I probably would never do. 

And so no baby girls.....

It is me who needs you to stay alive....

In summary

We did it! Not because we wanted to, but because we had each other. I love you Kennedy Wells. Everyday I am more proud of you, more amazed by you, and so happy you are mine. You are a reflection of all I have done right in this world. Thank you for choosing me. Now let's go knock the next goal out the park...together as always